|I will speak on this once and no more.
||[22nd February, 2006|01:16]
|||||Paint It Black||]|
When you lose someone you love, or they leave you, it hurts. It dosent stop. It never will. You cant stop loving them, you should not, and you should honor their memory. Disbelief, denial, anger, all that crap comes with it, but it dosent change the fact that what it comes down to is that you are hurt. It will always be there, so you have to make a choice: Let it continue to eat away at you or use it to make your self stronger. I let mine do the first for a long time. I still dont think I've done the second one yet, so woot, splodey, carpe nox, lefterinal the conqueror, and too many other things. I'm tired. Too many good memories, that were lies, coming back that just go into the bad memories pile. Too many questions that will never be answered.....when I'm buried, there will be rum.... and cigars.... and guns.... lots of guns....